I hate the how my life works sometimes. Stupid GREs. Why??? Why???
Why does the ONE professor I want to work want want to work with me as well? And why does that program and those professors begin speaking about what grants they can nominate me for? Why??? Why when it all comes crashing down thanks to ETS and the program's unbelievably near-perfect minimum for acceptance?
Why?
Slit my throat now please... the disappointment is unbearable.
...
I'm mostly disappointed I left my mentors down. And myself. And the professors who actually want to work with me.
Fuck me.
Fuck me for overachieving in highschool and totally bypassing mathematics and english because I fulfilled requirements before entry into college.
Fuck my overachieving teenage self.
Deadline - Program
- Nov 6 NSF Graduate Research Fellowship
- Nov 14 Ford Foundation Diversity Fellowship
- Nov 20+21 SUNY StonyBrook visit
- Dec 30 Graduate Record Exam (GRE) - great depression
- Jan 1 Washington St. Louis application deadline
- Jan 2 Harvard University
- Jan 5 George Washington University
- Jan 10 University of Missouri - Columbia
- Jan 15 SUNY Stony Brook
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