let go of my hand, you've already gone

Glen Hansard of The Swell Seasons/The Frames. A man with a penchant for wrenchingly passionate melodies. At the recent concert in Prospect Park with Marketa Irglova, he broke through 5 strings, one of which was during this song and as his stage hand switched guitars, he continued belting out this haunting melody with such angst and so much passion... the man needed no microphone that evening.

What a night. What a performer.

I can't wait forever is all that you said
Before you stood up
And you won't disappoint me
I can do that myself
But I'm glad that you've come
Now if you don't mind

Leave, leave,
And free yourself at the same time
Leave, leave,
I don't understand, you've already gone

And I hope you feel better
Now that it's out
What took you so long
And the truth has a habit
Of falling out of your mouth
But now that it's come
If you don't mind

Leave, leave,
And please yourself at the same time
Leave, leave,
Let go of my hand
You said what you have to now
Leave, leave,
Let go of my hand
You said what you came to now
Leave, leave,
Leave, leave,
Let go of my hand
You said what you have to now
Leave, leave

gold-digging bear!

Who would leave an adorable little mouse for an ugly green frog?
This song reminds me so much of the film "500 Days of Summer".



there are worse ways for a guy to spend his time
than to sit and think of you
i think i'd marry you
just your smile
leaves me satisfied
though you're not mine

so for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

and we tend the garden all day long
watching history unfold
and i'd be enough
and you'd be enough
and we'd grow old

so for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you

yeah, for the rest of my life
i'm gonna search for someone just like you
-Rilo Kiley, "For the rest of my life."

alone is okay

Tanya Davis - How to be alone.

Society is afraid of alone though. Like lonely hearts are wasting away in basements. Like people must have problems if after awhile no one is dating them. But lonely is a freedom that breaths easy and weightless, and lonely is healing if you make it. You can stand swaffed by groups and mobs and hands with your partner, look both further and farther in the endless quest for company. But no one is in your head. And by the time you translate your thoughts an essence of them maybe lost or perhaps it is just kept. Perhaps in the interest of loving oneself, perhaps all those sappy slogans from pre-school over to high school groaning, we’re tokens for holding the lonely at bay. Cause if you’re happy in your head, and solitude is blessed, and alone is okay., Its okay if no one believes like you, all experiences unique, no one has the same synapses can’t think like you, this me/ be ?, keeps things interesting, life’s magic brings much, and it doesn’t mean you aren’t connected, the community is not present, just take back to you get from being one person in one head and feel the effects of it. Take silence and respect it, if you have an art that needs practice stop neglecting it, if your family doesn’t get you or a religious sect is not meant for you, don’t obsess about it. You could me in an instant surrounded if you need it, if your heart is bleeding, make the best of it, there is heat and freezing be a testament.

Begin at the beginning...

...and go on until you come to the end: then stop. - The King, Alice in Wonderland.


Why I adore my friends:
-because when I start a conversation saying a random line of a random song, they continue it but reciting the rest of the song like it was a real conversation.
-because food excites them.
-because they know food excites me.
-because warm and fuzzy feelings are understood to be induced by warm and delicious goodness.
-because they appreciate it when I nerdily insert random information about the human body, human evolution, and bipedalism into everyday conversations about, say, fixing shoes at the cobbler.
-because we talk dirty about good food.
-because they know I love "appreciating" dorks/nerds...and they still hang out with me. hahaha.
-because they share my irrational fears.
-because they come up with random -isms like "It's like when a clown car rolls in, and 40 clowns come out" and use it as an everyday metaphor.
-because they appreciate my macabre sense of humor sometimes.
-because they share my appreciation for irony and sarcasm.
-because they get why I dislike Metamorphosis because it pains me to see unfair things happen to unsuspecting people, even if they are only fictional characters.
-because they totally ARE the coolest people in the world.

Why I <3heart<3>

-because with you guys, the HIGH FIVE is still alive.

-because none of us want to wear jeans and will happily go on living our winter lives with tights if only our asses wouldn't grow out in all kinds of directions like J-lo.

-because we all complain about our extra weight, but still love to love food.

I <3 my friends.


Happy holidays!
FYI: this list is only going to get longer...and longer...and longer.